Come dear poison
feel free to enter
I’ll take you inside
but not to my center

With my heart protected
the blood is boiling
you aim for my life
but your plans I’m spoiling

Taking you instead
on a journey through my soul
showing how we truly
are one and all

As I acknowledge
our connection in love
a blast of light
comes from above

I lay down
in darkness divine
letting our spirits
dance and intertwine

So much wisdom
pouring through my veins
dangerous but potent
upon me it gains

There’s no escape
only one road to take
transmutation
stay focused, make no mistake

One wrong turn
and all is lost
burn I would
if I don’t exhaust

That of you, poison dear
which causes me pain
breathing, sweating
fighting to stay sane

Won’t let you take my brain
You attack in vain

I will remain
and gently steal
that of you
which makes me heal

Knowing it’s in there
amassing all force
for a second
I am almost entirely yours

Then I strike
as fast as you
intuition knowing
exactly what to do

Breathing, relaxing
but there’s no surrender
will throw you out
but keep your splendor

Poison dear
come dance with me
so grateful for your touch
let’s be really near

One step closer
and I’ll strike you down
there’s no surrender
here I wear the crown

Boiling my blood
staying sane
focused and firm
using heart, soul and brain

And then there it is
my salvation
the splendid fruit
of this deep transmutation

Dearest poison
I won over thee
gratefully releasing
what doesn’t belong to me

Your wisdom is now mine
my body I keep
I’m still alive
not deep asleep

Not lost forever
no I’m here
showed you your place
released the fear

Exiting enriched
by your donation
dangerous but magical
is transmutation

Merging with the body
breathing into every cell
wishing with stern intent
that all parts of me are well

Surrendering to process
may all come into light
I will go through it
won’t put up a fight

With my complete awareness
through the system I sense
releasing what needs to
relaxing the tense

It’s all inside me
and everywhere around
a healing power
that wants me safe and sound

Sounds very simple
but takes courage and discipline
can’t heal without changing
the state that I’m in

Compassion and forgiveness
that is the key
kindly and gently
but clearly I see

Observing the pain
the fear, the blockade
then surrender into it
and healing is made

Without too many words
but with clear communication
I set goals and release
in humble conversation

With all parts of me
and with all that I’m connected
I focus and then let go
allowing health to be resurrected

It’s a journey inside
on paths so deep
hiding is no option
instead I take a leap

Into my future self
let the next moment be
I will not control it
I surrender to be free

As one in ten
go hungry to bed
nature is dying
and a plague has spread

War is raging
constantly
whatever you do,
don’t follow me

What paths do we take
to get out of this
do we make up and find
the way to bliss
I hope I pray
but despair I see
whatever you do
don’t follow me

Get up, stand up
or lie down and breathe
the path that is yours
will show with ease
to take it, that’s
the challenge now
we’ll make it
if you show up somehow
whatever it takes
set your soul free
and no matter what
don’t follow me

Yes one in ten
go hungry to bed
I wanna cry, but my
tears have spread
turned into a coat
of deep protection
I take it and walk now
without perfection
Apocalypse Now
everywhere I see
whatever you do
don’t follow me

I know your heart
is beating strong
so many are in rhythm
with their souls song
together or one on one
I listen, I hear you
you found where you belong
I wish you perseverance
and may you be free
and whatever you do
don’t follow me

In the middle of everything
and deep inside
I found my blessing
can no longer hide
I know what to do
it’s no big riddle
may I follow through
and stay in my middle
no matter the screams
and calls of despair
I take a deep breath
must focus, now and here

Because this time
the plea that I follow
is the one of my soul
I will not wallow
neither in tears
nor in dreams of what could be
whatever you do
don’t follow me

For the one in ten
that goes hungry to bed
I will resist my false urges
and be true to me instead
Apocalypse Now
come what may
on my path
I will truly stay
please, stand up, get up
or lie down, breathe and be free
and whatever you do
don’t follow me

A breath we take
so easily
yet what is it that make
you you and me me?

Being alive
comes naturally
but to live fully we strive
just like to be free

No matter how hard I try
something remains fake
I’m honest, I won’t lie
you can see it in the face I make

Truthful and happy
is how I sometimes feel
but I seem to lack the key
to always be real

It’s either this or that trauma
that stands in the way
wanna call out for mama
but I’m grown up I say

Should be making it
on my own
instead I’m faking it
I’m not fully grown

You seem so strong they say
maybe it’s all just an act
I do feel weak and I sway
can tell you that is a fact

It might be like this for everyone
If so I wanna be the exception
to wake up with my freedom won
and thaw out what was frozen

Yet here I stand
right in my own way
like a statue, a brand
I know, I’m changing but hey

– it’s not enough
I want it now
I know I’m too tough
on myself somehow

But how can I feel
differently
just want to be real
now (fast, not meekly)

or never
phew, I have to stay focused
and very clever
I wonder, can I trust

that I will walk freely
somewhere, someday
take a chance to be me
come what may

Yes what is it that makes
a person who they are
and what is it that brakes
the lies and forms a star

Can I make it?
Don’t know, we will see
I might fall into a pit
or finally be free

I will do what I can
I assure you of that
it is my plan
my only combat

is within
a fight to be real
I relax and I win
feel what I really feel

One of these days
maybe I can say
it has been a maze
but I made my way

into being me
without masks or fakes
yes I will finally be free
whatever it takes